The Land of Insanity

Finding out we were going to have a baby coincided with an increase in my workload at school.  Due to that I am having trouble sorting through what is really important and what I can let go.  Also a lack of sleep has entered into my life that is a mix of anxiety over my job and anticipation of our Apple Seed (current size - all last weekend they were poppy seed, so the name will change until we pick one for good, or I could just name them Apple like Gwyneth Paltrow).  I lay awake at night and think about my project, when things will get done and things that my boss says that get under my skin.  Wondering if there will be enough time and how much time I am going to have to put in to get things done.  The second I wake up in the morning, for a bathroom break or Adam's alarm the thinking begins again accompanied by a nervous stomach.  I haven't quite decided if it is a nervous stomach because of Apple Seed or work, or both, but it causes me to start thinking about work again and I have nothing to do but just get up and start my day because the longer I lay there the worse it gets.  I'm sure this will go away as my project is underway and I have my first doctor's appointment on April 15th.  it isn't sustainable!  I don't think Adam thinks I am a nut case YET, but I do know my co-worker has to think that now due to my emails I send at 5 in the morning asking him about schedule and if he thinks I should start tomorrow instead of Saturday, and what he thinking about this or that.  I have lived my life like this before, the nervousness and early mornings but they were temporary and I was able to gain control through clearing my mind, prayer, and scripture.  I am trying all those things now with little success.  I guess I am out of practice - it has been almost 7 years since my last bout of this.